Anymore

 
He
Is not the same
Anymore
The Gleam in his eyes
Has darkened
When I look
I don’t seem to
See it
Anymore

Replaced by
Nothing
An emptiness that said
Something else is
In store
For all those who look
Into them
Direct

He don’t want to have
Discourse
Anymore
Just in case his words
Cause one to fall
Flat
Onto this hardened
Floor
No use reasoning because
He’s just gonna
Ignore your
Pleas
Of
Let‘s just talk
Looking so strong on
The
Outside
But
Weakness leaking deep
On the
Inside
Of his troubled
Inner
Soul


He just don’t want
To pretend
Anymore
He’s no one’s friend
No sister’s brother
Abandoned by his
Father
He rejects his praying
Mother
All this because his
Hopes and dreams
Were just washed down
The gutter
He point blankly refused
To learn that
The battles lost today
Didn’t necessarily mean
It would stop
The ones to be
Won
In the future
If only
He would just
Maintain

Believe in him self
Putting his pride and
Ego on
The shelf

But he’d rather not
I see it in his eyes
As the simmering light
Gradually stops
No more aglow
Never
To
Return

Anymore

Elitha©2006 

Say Nothing.......

Say nothing
When your heart's
In pain
Say nothing
When the sun won't
Shine
After the
Rain
Let Silence speak instead
On your behalf
When you can
Neither cry
And find it difficult
To laugh
Say nothing
Let silence's voice transcend
Where no one else can reach
As it slowly echoes these words...

Give him sweet settled peace!

Elitha copyright 2006

I Am

I Am

A thought process
Intricate in detail
But simple in
Delivery

I Am

The compound
Found in trees
That gives you the
Ability
To
Breathe…

I Am

Silent whispers
That softly
Gets your attention
Causing your conscious
To speak up
Making you take
Another direction

I Am

The one who tells you
There’s no need to
Apologise
For stating
Your opinions
Giving you the space
You need to
Express yourself
Within this earthly
Dominion


I Am

A spirit
Uncomplicated
But
Uninterested
In the things that
Don’t concern
You

I Am

Your mid summer nights
Breeze
The moon allowing
You to walk with no
Fear of the
Unseen
The Setting Sun
That brings you to
Your knees
The one who
Helps you decipher
Your wants
From your needs
Waiting here in anticipation
For you
To
Just
Notice
ME

I Am

The one who
Sees your
Transparency
And at other times
Your vulnerability
Please just
Listen
To me
Because I know you are
No fool

I Am

All of the
Above and
More
But even this does not
Stop me from
Wanting
To find out
And explore
You’re thoughts as you continue
To read
Between
Each line
I won’t keep you any
Longer
As I believe that all
I have said
Deep down you
Already knew
Because you’ve dipped
Your toes in
My
Waters


I Am

Who

I

Am

And If

I Am

Then please would
Or
Can
You
Hear these words I say

I Am

Is

Only

A

Thought
Away

Elitha©2006

In The Beginning.....

Was the

Word

Unlike others
It was covered in
Splendour
With no hidden
Agenda
No unbroken
Promises
Truthful with integrity
No ambiguity
Demonstrating that it
Had the power
To
Perform

All that it said it would

This Word
Was not limited
Sometimes slighted but
Remaining
Uninhibited
Making it difficult
For those trying to
Counterfeit it
Placing titles such as
Spoken
Before it

But in the beginning


Was…

It gave hope to the hopeless
Love to hurting
Food to the hungry
Even provided for
Those who had no money

But one of its most precious

Prize

Was

The

Gift

Of

LIFE


In the beginning was

The….

You still haven’t
Heard
IT
IS
The Author
And the finisher

Even monosyllabic
Syllables

Even
Poetry and literature

Even Dreams and hopes
For the Future

Even motions

Even Sounds

Are subjected
To its
Awesome plans

In the beginning

Was

The

Word

And the Word
Knew
No form
For the Word
Was all
And
In

All

And the

Word

Was

GOD!

Elitha©2006

2 Poets to Poets: Why We Write

Our precious emotions
Fuel the gift
Of poetic expression
Transforming into spirit
Genuine thoughts
Planted in hearts
That seek
Soft retreats
Into the mind
Rendering time
To teach
Granting sight and clarity
To the blind & blurred
Articulating words
So many earnestly
Desire to speak
Is definitely no
Easy feat
But we do this
Because we
Passionately believe
It’s a necessity
To show the human spirit's
Stance
When dealing with
Issues
Of the heart
Conveyed within
Our poetic expose
Which has many
Thinking
Feeling
Exploring
Adoring
Our messages
Which are so hard to be
Ignored
And
Yes
This is our vocation
Putting paper to pen
But its more than
Just an responsive
Action
It
Is
Indeed
Our Life! ….
A life of responsibility
And convictions
Standing in bold ink
Changing the world’s conditions
Giving into no resign
Until releasing minds confined
Carefully crafted
Words on a canvass
Like an artist’s brush strokes
Painting words that provoke
Feelings like music
Of sounds and lyrics
Words beautifully sculpted
And carefully constructed
Displayed in the museums
Of the hearts of men & women
Thoughtfully shared
Unconcealed and bare
Like newborn babes
Innocent and unashamed
Sweet & untainted
Politically unacquainted
Pure passages of honest
Artistically flawless
Poetry
We bless you with
This gift
From 2 poets
To all poets

Copyright  Elitha & Atlanta Red

What Does That Mean?

Chequered thoughts
Fragmented
But
Loosely
Chained together
I’m losing myself
But this time
It does
Not
Matter

What does that mean?

Inhibited
No More
I’m floating on
A feeling
Too hard to
Ignore
Releasing my
Potential
Visually
I can
See IT
But words won’t
Let me
Speak IT

What does that mean?

My expectations
Are high
I’m usually a
Realist
But today
I wanna fly
Into a world
Where dreaming
Is the
In thing
To
Do
As thoughts of you
Cause butterflies
To
Flutter
Into the
Deepest
Part
Of
ME

What does that mean?

To be perfectly
Honest with you

I’m
Not
Sure

Lol lol lol

Are You?

2006©Elitha

Hard Talk

I DON’T
UNDERSTAND
WHY IT’S SO HARD
FOR YOU
TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY
FOR YOUR OWN
ACTION
THAN TO PILE THEM UPON
ME!

I CAN’T
COMPREHEND
HOW YOU CONSTANTLY
SEEM TO
BLAME
OTHERS AND
THE WORLD
FOR YOUR
SELF-INFLICTED
PAIN
AND YOU’RE AMAZING
ABILITY
TO
LIE IN MY
FACE
WITHOUT FEELING
AN OUNCE
OF
SHAME!


I REALLY
CANNOT FATHOM
THE NOTION
THAT
EVERYTHING SPOKEN
ABOUT YOU
IS UNTRUE
HAVE YOU STOPPED TO
CONSIDER
THAT MAYBE
YOUR GREATEST ENEMY
IS
YOU

I WON’T BE A GOOD FRIEND
IF I DON’T
TELL IT LIKE
IT IS
COS LIFE IS MUCH TOO
SHORT
TO BE
STUDYING OTHER
PEOPLE’S BUSINESS
TRUE SAY
YOU’VE BEEN HURT
AND HAVE HAD YOU’RE
SHARE OF ROUGH
TIMES
BUT LIVING OFF
THE HURT
THAN LETTING THEM
GO
HONEY
IS A SERIOUS CRIME
AGAINST THE LAWS
OF AGAPE LOVE
AND
HAVING
A SOUND
MIND

SO WHAT IF
SHE SAID
OR HE SAID
OR THEY SAID
THOSE THINGS

LOOK
WHILST THIS WORLD
KEEPS TURNING
YOU’LL HEAR
STUFF
YOU DON’T AGREE
WITH

DOES IT MEAN
YOU KEEP YOU’RE
LIFE ON HOLD
UNTIL YOU PROOF
THEM
WRONG!

WELL I HAVE
BEEN LISTENING
TO YOUR
COMPLAINTS
FOR YEARS
AND WOULD ADVISE
YOU
TO PLAY ANOTHER
SONG

THE TUNE
THAT LOOKS
INTROSPECTIVELY
INWARDLY
THAT’S NOT
CONCERNED WITH
STYLE OR
FASHION
BUT
SEARCHES
THE HEART
AND HIGHLIGHTS
THE AREAS
THAT
YOU NEED
TO WORK ON


I HAVE
LOOKED PASSED YOUR
FAILINGS
I DON’T SEE
MYSELF
BETTER
OR ABOVE YOU
BUT
BELIEVE IT IS
TIME FOR YOU TO
STOP HATING
AND START
LOVING
YOU



ELITHA©2006

Not Letting Go

I no longer care
About
The Principle of the
Matter
You’re worth too much to say
I’ll see you
Later
Cos later has a final ring
This time
And I can’t imagine
Not having you
In my life
I know we can make it
Through this
Despite all the thrown
Words
You saying you’re leaving
Has hit the spot
Other words
Have missed
I’m not gonna front
And attempt
To flatter
Your ego
Cos babes this aint
About
The principle of the
Matter
Cos principles aint worth
Giving up
And
Letting you go
It’ll be like me just
Giving up the ghost!
And if you
Leave
I will be losing
The part of me
I
Love the
Most

So……

Don’t Go.

Elitha 2006

More Than A Conqueror

St. Vincent & the Grenadines is so beautiful, and its beauty has a therapeutic effect. Swimming and relaxing on the beach had such a calming effect, the clear blue water caressing me as if to say, sadness is but for a time, let your tears fall so that we can carry them away into the heart of the sea, where all tears gather….but no tears would fall.

(extract from personal diary 30th April 05)



Follow where He leads
Listen when He speaks
As He takes you by the hand
Don't try to understand
When this journey's going to end

He said He'll always be your
Friend
And stick closer than any brother
Can
His words are yours to command
So never put them down
Where them like a crown
Until from your mouth you proudly pronounce
This truth
No one else can dear refuse
That
Being more than a conqueror
Means.........
You can never lose!!

Elitha©2006

Dedicated to Samantha.

Unchain My Heart

UNCHAIN THIS HEART OF MINE
NOW
CUT AWAY THE CORDS THAT HOLD
HURTS AND UNFORGIVENESS
ALLOW ME TO LOVE AGAIN BEING
INTIMATE WITH YOU IS AN OPPORTUNITY I
NEED TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF
EVERY TIME I WASTE CONTEMPLATING
DELIBERATING SEEMS TO CAUSE ME IMMENSE PAIN

WHEN?....I HEAR YOU ASK
HAVE YOU NOT HEARD MY EARNEST REQUEST?
UNCHAIN MY HEART RIGHT NOW, I PLEAD
RELEASE ME TO LOVE ONCE MORE
DO NOT DELAY FOR I AM
ZEALOUS FOR YOU AND YOU ONLY.


Another UnChAineDWhurDZ inspired piece.

Elitha©2006

Happiness

I want you to just for a minute to focus on the picture above......apart from who the famous person is....tell me what do you see?

This is one of my favourite pictures because it portrays someone who appears to be happy, self-confident, no doubt you can add more to this list.....

How many times have you seen photos of people, just like Jill, with warm smiles and something that says everything is just wonderful? Now read.....the poem below.





HAPPINESS



SOMETIMES I FEEL

THAT HAPPINESS

IS JUST A CONCEPT

IN THE

HUMAN MIND

AND FOR THOSE OF US

WHO LIVE

IN THE REAL WORLD

IT SEEMS

EVEN DIFFICULT

TO FIND



SOME SAY

IT’S LAUGHTER

A SMILE

WELL…

IT CAN BE FOUND

IN THOSE CONTEXT

HOWEVER,

IT ALWAYS LEADS ME

TO QUESTION

IS IT SOMETHING

THAT CAN

REALLY BE EXPRESSED?



IT’S SOMETHING THAT

I YEARN FOR

SEARCH FOR

PRAY FOR

AND YET

WHAT’S EVEN MORE STRANGE

ARE THE REMARKS

MADE AROUND ME

HOW IT’S WRITTEN

ON MY FACE!



HAPPINESS IS DEFINED

IN YET

SO MANY WAYS

BUT FOR NOW

I’LL JUST KEEP

HOPING

AND IN THE MEANTIME

COPING

TILL

NOT JUST A

GLIMPSE

BUT A PERRENIAL

EXPERIENCE OF THIS

PHENOMENON

TRANSLATES ITSELF

FROM

WITHIN THE RECESS

OF

MY HEAD

AND PENETRATE

THIS

STUBBORN

SAD

LONELY

THING



I CALL

MY LIFE

INSTEAD





ELITHA©2006




Sometimes the very impression we give to the outside world......is not all what it seems, alot of us are hurting but are too frightened to let anyone see...just in case...they shun away from us...some of us have become professional performers and have become so use to wearing various masks for various occasions, to the point where we cannot even acknowledge our 'real' selves.

Tell me..what does happiness mean to you?

Tears Fall

Tears fall from heaven as angels pause
And pay homage to their fallen comrade
No more rising sun or melodious tunes
To gaze upon or slowly move to
Slowly
Solemnly
They walked towards his lifeless shape
Hoping that one more breath he’d take
But alas
It was already written
That this was the way it was supposed to be
He took the fall
And he did it
Just for me…

Today
Tears fell from heaven
But unlike torrential rain
Concentrated on
Cleansing me from all the
Humiliation
And
Pain
Low self esteem
And
Shame

Giving the word Love
A new meaning
So that I could live again

Angels now stand in awe
Singing a new song
How their fallen comrade
Has come back to life
In this earthly
Vulnerable
Soul.

ELITHA©2006

Every Now And Then

Every now and then
I think to myself
There is more to me
Than being
A wife
Lover
Mother
Daughter
Sister
Friend

Every now and then
I search deep within
For the light in me
To penetrate my surroundings
And to extinguish my darkest nights

Every now and then
I remind myself
That the gratitude I have
For love and life
Irrespective of the challenges I face
Is sufficient enough for me
To master them all

Every now and then
I speak to myself
Professing and declaring all
My creator has said about me
I am the head and not the tail!

Every now and then
I throw caution to the wind
And share my inner thoughts
Hoping
Like seeds they will not
Be mis-understood
But instead
Fall
On fertile hearts

Every now and then
I remind myself
That will power alone is not
Enough to create
The desired changes in me
Instead I take a leap of faith
Into the unknown
Knowing
My life is about taking risks
No more living in my comfort zone

Every now and then
I choose to fight my battles
With lethargy
Indifference
Ambiguity
And get rid of them with
One stroke of my pen

Every

Now

And

Then

I take a look in the mirror
At this naked body of mine and
Confidently remark
“You sure look good!”

Just every now and then….

Elitha©2006

Who Told You

WHO TOLD YOU

WHO TOLD YOU TO TAKE MY DREAM
AND SCREW IT UP
AS IF IT’S A “HAS BEEN”
WHO TOLD YOU TO TAKE MY JOY
AND KICK IT AWAY
LIKE SOME BOUNCEY TOY

WHO TOLD YOU TO BLOT MY NAME
OF THE WALLS OF ELMINA
FROM WHENCE
MY FOREFATHERS CAME
WHO TOLD YOU?

WHO TOLD YOU TO MUTE MY CRIES
AND REPLACE MY HISTORY
WITH YOUR BLATANT LIES
WHO TOLD YOU
THAT BLACK IS WRONG
AND WHITE IS RIGHT
HAS IT EVER OCCURRED
YOU COULD BE COLOUR-BLIND?

WHO TOLD YOU THAT
MY GIFTS ARE IN
MUSIC AND SPORTS ALONE
SCIENCE AND TECHNOLOGY
WILL FIND IN ME NO HOME


I BEG TO DIFFER
CHECK OUR FAMOUS MATHEMATICIANS
YOU’LL SOON DISCOVER
THAT FOR MANY CENTURIES
CIVILISATION HAVE BEEN RIDING
ON THE BACKBONE
OF AFRICA

WHO EVER TOLD YOU
TELL THEM FROM ME
THEIR WORDS CANNOT HIDE
WHAT THE EYES CAN SEE!

2006©ELITHA

I was Just

I WAS JUST THINKING OF YOU TODAY
LISTENING TO YOUR VELVET VOICE
CARRESSING MY VELVET SKIN
GOT MY HEAD SPINNING
THESE FEELING ENTICED ME
LIKE COOL ICE
BEING
MELTED OVER MY BODY
ON A HOT SUMMER’S DAY
PROBING BENEATH
MY OUTER SHELL
MASSAGING INTO
MY
INNER
WOMAN
SELF ASSURANCE
GIVING ME
GRATITUDE FOR
LOVE
AND
LIFE

I WAS MEDITATING ON YOU TODAY
TOTALLY FOCUSING ON
YOUR SHEER BRILLIANCE
RESILIENSE
OF
CHARACTER
YOUR CALM AND PLEASANT
AURA
I AM TOTALLY IN AWE
OF YOU
MESMERISED BY THE GOD
IN YOU

WHATSOEVER THINGS
ARE
LOVELY
PURE
GOOD
JUST
AND TRUE

THINK ON THESE THING

I WAS JUST THINKING
OF
YOU


ELITHA©2006

Ode To A Black Man

ODE TO A BLACK MAN

FOR THOU HADST TAKEN THE BREATH
OUT OF MY BODY
TIS HARD TO BELIEVE OR CONCEIVE
THAT YOU HAVE BETROVED YOURSELF
TO SPEND YOUR LIFE WITH ME
FOR THOU TOUCHED
AND MY HEART DID MELT AWAY

I AM DARK BUT COMELY
SOLOMON SAID
BUT OH YOUR DARKNESS
MY LOVE
PENETRATES EVEN THE BRIGHTEST
ROOM
YOU COMPLIMENT THE SUN AS
YOUR WELL DEFINED STATURE
BIDS ME TO COME…
SOON
MY LOVE
I RETORTED WITH MINE EYES
RIGHT NOW I JUST WANT TO ADMIRE
THIS PRIZE CATCH
OF STRENGHTH
VISION
COVERED IN DETERMINATION TO
UPHOLD HIS POSITION OF
GREATNESS

TIS YOU MY SOUL DESIRETH
BLACK MAN
NOT EVEN THE DRY AND BARREN LANDS
OF OUR HOMELAND
CAN HINDER THY FERTILE SEED
FROM SPRINGING FORTH WITHIN ME

I SHALL BE THY QUEEN
WARRIOR
FIGHTING IN UNISON AGAINST
THE TYRANNIES OF
ABJECT POVERTY
SYSTEMS OF GREED
TOGETHER WE SHALL BE
FEEDERS OF TRUTH AND KNOWLEDGE
PRESERVING OUR HERITAGE
RE-WRITING HISTORY
REMINDING OUR PEOPLE
WHO WE ARE
AND WHAT WE ARE MEANT
TO BE

WHICH IS MORE THAN JUST
FREE……

BLACK MAN
I SALUTE THEE

MAKEST THOU ME TO RUN IN HASTE
AT THE SOUND OF THY VOICE
FOR INDEED YOU HAVE CHOSEN WISELY
I AM HUMBLED
YET BLESSED
TO KNOW BLACK MAN

TIS YOU I LOVE
AND NO ONE ELSE
TO THIS I DO ATTEST

ELITHA©2006

Secrets

Locked up and secure

Where no one can reach it

It remains my very own secret

Reminding me that all was not well



I made a promise to myself

Not to tell anyone

And how the yearning to reveal it

Was suppressing me

Yet it remained

Reminding me that all was not well



How can people manage to

Keep secrets

Some years

Some days

Some even seconds!

Allowing them to occupy an important

Space in their heart?



Sleepless nights,

Irritable moods swings,

Pretending to be alright

When internally everything was all wrong

But when the cracks started to appear

I was left wandering

Who or what parts of it

Should I share

Could I even dare to?



After being reminded that

All was not well

With me

I got fed up…………

And spoke to God about it.



Elitha©2005

Tragic Lives - Part 1

The phone rings, I casually pick it up.

Your voice echoes…”hello, are you there?”
My response is a calm and polite, “yeah”
“Is that you Carl, is everything ok?”
You sound kinda distant and responded
“I just don’t know what to say” continuing with urgency
“I need you to come over,
Please, right away”
“Are Jen and the kids alright” I asked but before
I hear the phone go down,
I hear your words
“Quick now, don’t delay”

My driving became chaotic
As I think of what could be wrong
But my thoughts are interrupted by the radio playing
A favourite song
Hearing floetry sing “If I was bird, I’ll fly away………”
Before I knew it I was approaching your place

No lights could be seen coming from the house.

Left the car slowly
But my footsteps began to gather pace
As my heart started to beat faster
Not knowing what I was going to confront
But still trying to anticipate
By your facial expression
There was no way I could guess your fate
With your head now bowed
As I entered in
You whispered, “It’s too late”
No noise could be heard in the whole house
Buy an airy silence
As your words again began to resonate
“She’s gone”

I knew that things hadn’t been good
Between you lately
The arguments went from monthly
To daily
Was also aware that due to this
She began to stray
But you started to work it out
And her infidelity you forgave
I advised you both to see a counsellor
After all you had so much to offer
One another
You had two beautiful children
A girl for you and a boy for her
What more could anyone want or ask for?

You gave a big sigh
As if to signal, let it be
I couldn’t help but ask you
“Carl, why did she leave?”
Tired and frustrated you looked at me
And shouted “you just don’t understand”
With eyes wild but not with excitement
Shoved this letter in my hand……..

Elitha©2006

Tragic Live - Part 2

I stood still waiting looking at the letter
In my hand
As if by staring at its folded corners
The words would just jump off
Onto try land
Making it easy for me to understand
I looked up into your tear filled eyes
And saw there were tear stains also splattered
All over its page

So I read……

Before I go I just want to say
That the words that I spoke
To you just were unable to convey
What I really needed you to know
My indiscretion was a result of
My inner pain of losing
The intimacy we had once shared
And yes
I do care

I struggled so hard to understand
Why I had hurt you so
And the hate I feel towards myself
God only knows
But now I can only conclude
Its time for me to go

Leaving you and the kids is
The hardest thing to do
And if you think this decision
Is easy for me then I think you should
Know just how I tried to
Fight so hard that I could
Remain here with you
But the fact still kept coming back
Its time for me to go

So anger and disillusionment
I leave at this door
Feelings of resentment I now
Choose to ignore
I love you and that’s the only
Thing I know for sure
You’re the man I pledged to
Spend the rest of my life with
But now I’m walking thru this door

You see life now holds no meaning
It just doesn’t make any sense
Tell the children that I will always love them
And that my love is heaven sent
I will guide them
Be right beside them
And in the end their pain will end

Now don’t be angry with me and please try to forgive
And understand that
I have just lost the will to…….
Live
I don’t blame anyone but myself
Its all down to the choices that
I made
And the consequences of my choices
Seems to suggest the debt is too much
To pay
I can’t go on any longer and have finally
Agreed
With the words you’ve spoken
I am selfish and difficult to please
A whore in the making and so untrustworthy
So why should I be here
Its really time for me to leave

The feelings getting stronger
And the voice of reason is taking
A rest
My only resolve is to disappear
I think that's what's best
For you
For the children
For family
And friends
The world will surely shine much brighter
When this blot is put to rest

May you find the love
You surely and truly deserve
May peace and happiness follow you
And bad memories no more heard
Even your memories of me
Become a distant blur
And when the day is over
This truth you will surely know
That this relationship is over
Because
It was time for her to go

As I arrived at end I hear you crying uncontrollably
With my arms wrapped around you
I am thinking
This cannot be real
Soon someone will wake me
Saying you’re having a bad dream

In the distant we hear the phone ring
As the answer phone clicks in
The caller states
“Mr Johnson, this is accident and emergency, there’s been an
Incident and we need you to call us urgently”

Damn this shit is real!

Elitha©2006

I Am Not The Same

I

AM

NOT

THE

SAME

A GRADUAL REALISATION
BUT IT’S TRUE
I HARBOUR NO HARD FEELINGS
TOWARDS YOU
LETTING GO OF HATRED AND ANGER
WAS THE BEST THING I COULD DO
AFTER ALL
I’M RELEASHING ME AND NOT YOU!

JUSTIFIED I MAY BE
BUT I CAN NOW LOOK YOU
STRAIGHT IN THE EYE
NO LONGER INTERESTED IN
THE WHERE FORES AND
THE WHYS
REJECTING ANY LABELS
WANTING TO ATTACH ITSELF
TO ME

I’M NO VICTIM
AND DEFINITELY DON’T NEED SYMPATHY
OR EVEN YOUR
APOLOGY
IN FACT THIS HAS ONLY
STRENTHENED ME
AND GIVEN ME INSIGHT INTO
MY ABILITY TO FIGHT
AND TAKE BACK WHAT
BELONGS TO ME……….

MY DIGNITY

I

AM

NOT

THE

SAME

THE PERSON YOU ONCE KNEW
AGREED WITH EVERY WORD YOU SAID
STOOD SILENT IN YOUR PRESCENCE
ONLY SPOKE
WHEN YOU SAID I COULD
LOOKED FOR YOUR APPROVAL IN ALL THINGS
DESPITE THE BEATINGS
DIDN’T THINK I SHOULD
ARGUE AFTER ALL YOU WERE DOING
EVERYTHING FOR MY GOOD

REVERTING TO YOUR
OLD TRICKS OF BLAME
THIS TIME IT’S NOT GONNA WORK
SO YOU BETTER THINK AGAIN
TRYING TO CONVINCE ME
IT’S ALL IN MY HEAD
YOU ONLY WANT WHATS BEST FOR ME
AND DO NOT WANT ME HURT
BUT THE PHYSICAL SCARS
ARE EVIDENCE OF
YOUR WICKEDNESS INSTEAD
BRUTISH BEHAVIOUR
MANIPULATION
MENTAL BREAKDOWN
CONVINCING ME I AM WRONG
BABY I’M NO LONGER WEARING ROSE
TINTED GLASSES
AND I’M SINGING A NEW SONG

I

AM

NOT

THE

SAME


I am now free from your chains


Elitha©2006

A New Day

Woke up this morning
Uncertain what the future holds
But determined I’m gonna treat
Each day as a new beginning
From now on
No more side stepping
Procrastinating
Story telling and living on others dreams
No more reminiscing on all the
“What could have been”
Opportunity knocks and this time
I am in!

Taking my shower
And use this time to wash away
All of last year’s failures
Broken promises
Shattered dreams
Negative behaviour
Heartaches and pain
Can’t afford to let any of those remnants
Remain
It’s a new day

Whilst flossing my teeth
Now aware of the words
I now must speak into my life
Self blame and I have
Been in constant strife
But not anymore
Because I now choose to forgive
ME and bury those feelings
I once found hard to ignore
It’s a new day

No longer indecisive about what to wear
I’ve cleared out all my superficial gear
Clothed in commitment
To my purpose and goals
Attractive because now I am wearing
Gold
Not in terms of earrings and rings
But in
Confidence
Ambition
Tenacious in spirit
Selfless love and Giving
More time for me and of course to others
Now dressed and ready to be off
On my way
With a new hope
And a new me
On a new day

Look out world, here I come!

Elitha©2005